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I Will Never Judge How I Was Parented Ever Again
My parents weren’t as bad as I thought. There was passivity from one and aggression from another but they deserved some credit for the good they did.
For virtually all of my conscious life I assumed I’d be a better parent than they were but now I’m certain that that isn’t true.
I say this because my cat is lost and I am furious with her and with myself.
As a cat dad to a four month old kitten, I wanted to protect her but I knew I had to give her some independence. Clearly I was wrong to do that because now I don’t know where she is.
Frankly, it’s negligence on my part. She’s been out before and monitored closely but today was the day she slipped away as I was doing some work.
On the other hand, maybe I shouldn’t be so hard on myself. I’m fallible after all. And yet, I’m still furious with myself but also with her.
I knew the risk and she’s still so young. How could I be so stupid? If anything were to happen to her I don’t want to know what I’d think of myself. I should’ve been on top of her at all times. She’s too young to know the dangers out there.
And yet, I’m upset with her because she’s a rambunctious ball of orange and white lightning in the house. It looked like she was manic with cabin fever. But once…
