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I Stopped Meditating and Did This Instead
I started meditating around 2009. I woke up early, lit my candle and sat in silence. It was bliss, unless someone turned on a light near me and disturbed my peace. More on that later. But in a few months, I was clearly less reactive and less stressed.
And then I stopped meditating.
I resumed around 2012 or so, going back to the tried and true 5 AM ritual but without the candle as I had a view of trees swaying the breeze at that time. I continued it for about a year.
And then I stopped.
In 2015, I had to recall the practise and it served me well but I was cognizant of the fact that I was going to stop eventually, but this time, I wasn’t going to feel bad about it. And I did stop, but I did resume.
Meditation was used like how fair weather religious folk use prayer. When everything is alright, you don’t really need to pray or do your devotions. But when things are bad, they will fall on their knees. Please note that not all religious people do this. Some are quite devout and disciplined.
But this was me with meditation. When the stresses of life were particularly high, I needed to carve my own time for quiet, else I wouldn’t get one.
There’s this expectation that one should be meditating everyday to stave off diseases of…
